So, I decided to quit my old blog, and go anon because of my boyfriend’s soon to be job. First, let me start off by saying its
really extremely weird for me to be writing anonymously. I don’t usually bare my heart and soul to people. Very few people actually get past my emotional walls. But I wanted an outlet to write again, and maybe connect with people who are going through, or have already been through the same things as I am.
I was trying to think of a cryptonym/pseudonym that I could use to reference my boyfriend when writing. My mom (Mama Maxwell, as in Maxwell House coffee) has this quote that she says: “I like my men, like I like my coffee — Tall, Dark, and Handsome, with a little Cream and Sugar.” Hence the inspiration for my cryptonym, Mr. Java; because man on man is he definitely the tall, dark, and handsome type. Oh he is fine.
Anyway, my boyfriend is becoming a police officer. Hence, the anonymous blog. I not only want to protect his safety, now and in the future; but with certain things that have been happening lately, I’m beginning to doubt the whole internet security, privacy, etc. Just a little warning for people out there, be careful how much personal information you post on the internet. Recently, I decided to Google my name, and some of the things that came up, were really surprising. Not only did Google have scholarship websites linked to my name, but things people tagged me in on Pinterest, tweets that were posted, Facebook pictures that were supposed to be “private,” and blog posts too. Even though I had them at the highest privacy setting, because other people tagged me in stuff, it made it public.
Anyways, I’m off my soap box. I’ll introduce you to Mr. Java now. He is two and a half years older than me, and graduated from the same school I’m attending right now. We met my freshman year, when both of us were involved with other people. A friendship started between him and I and another girl that worked with us in the Science Lab. A year later, he went to do an internship, and we lost contact for a while. At his college graduation, we ran into each other and caught up, both of us were “taking a break” from the relationships we had been in. After that weekend, we lost contact again, this time for a good 7 or 8 months. But, we reconnected via facebook, exchanged numbers, and quickly became best friends. When we did reconnect, we both found out our relationships had ended permanently. I am really skeptical of technology and relationships, but even just through texting and phone calls, we became really close over the past year. We hung out two or three times in person, but that’s about it. In November of this past year, he came to visit me, and when he left there was a huge void. Not long after that, I realized just what I had been missing. Not only did I not have my best friend, but I realized that I was falling for this man. He came to meet my parents over New Years, and Mama Maxwell loved him, Papa Maxwell did too.
The rest is history. Even though we’ve only been dating for 4 weeks, it feels like forever. We were such good friends, that moving on to the next step was really natural for us. We literally talk about everything. I’m falling in love with this man, and I can’t wait to tell him.